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crazily sick.

2010-08-02T01:35:00.000-07:00

whoah. this week is seriously.... crazy.
heh heh. crazily sick!!

so long never sick liao...

then zhun zhun now sick. wtmama.

you know what people!!

SATURDAY is my BIRTHDAY!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

awesome much right!!

wahahahhahahahahahha. in your face people.

i'm a lucky girl.

anyway, havin' plans to close thiss blog or just abandon and let it rot.

too much memories and sadness.

decided to let go of everything and start anew.

so yeap. heh heh. i promise i'll lead a happy and good life aye.

see ya people.

2010-07-26T05:02:00.000-07:00

perhaps some day i'll stop posting stuff to haziq in this blog.

but i think that day will only come when...

i've gone crazy,

or...

I stop loving him,

or..

he tells me in the face to shut the fuck up and give up on him.

well... yeah.

suddenly was reminded bout last time,

heh heh. whenever i go to his house and only leave at 6 plus,

where he has to send me home and walk slowly with me,

and didn't tell me that he has to reach home before his mom does.

and in the end, he has to sprint home.

and i must say, he's an awesome sprinter.

like awesome.

awesomely fast.

but still,

yeah. like, when i reach home, even before i could step into the toilet,

he's home.

he has to walk along the canal and everything to reach home.

awww, sweet aye.

okayyy, slowly losing my mind.

i've forgotten how to love,

cause i haven't loved anyone besides him in ...

7 months?

yeah, 7 months.

i broke my record 'cause of him.

i stayed single for 7 months.

Ain't that just.... unimaginable.

'cause i love him THAT much. Just that much.

yeah. that much.

sighs.

i miss those times.

Use somebody ~ Laura Jansen

2010-07-23T08:01:00.000-07:00

Use Somebody is such an awesome song!! (:

Really nice song to listen at night when you're alone (:

heh heh. YAY!! TWO MORE WEEKS!!!!!!!!! NEXT NEXT WEEK IS.....

MY BIRTHDAY!! 7 AUGUST!! (:

Yay, awesome much. (:

love it!!

But, perhaps the best birthday present would be haziq.

But of course, no one can give me that.

So... yeap. (:

heh heh.

2010-07-23T03:11:00.000-07:00

TO: Haziq

2010-07-21T04:13:00.000-07:00

No, i haven't forgetten about you.

No, i haven't given up on you.

No, i'm not over what happened last year.

No, i still love you.

No, i haven't forgotten anything that happened between us.

No, i haven't.

I haven't.

Yeah, i'm stupidly waiting for you to return.

Yeah, i'm waiting for you to play guitar with me.

Yeah, i'm waiting for you to give me hugs so full of warmth.

Yeah, i'm waiting for you to cheer me up when i'm sad.

Yeah, i'm waiting for you to clean my tears away when i cry.

Yeah, i'm waiting for you to tell me everything will be alright.

Yeah, i'm waiting for you to come and fiddle with my hair.

Yeah, i'm waiting for you to send me home.

Yeah, i'm waiting for you to tell me ''i love you'' again.

Yeah, i'm waiting for you to hold my hand so very tightly.

Yeah, i'm waiting for you to kiss me.

Yeah, i'm waiting for you to hug me so tightly when i sleep.

Yeah, i'm waiting for you to go out with me.

Yeah, i'm waiting for you to be with me again.

Yeah, i still love you.

Yeah, i do.

I do.

But, you don't.

But, you love someone else, right?

But, you've given up on us already, right?

But, you don't love me anymore, right?

But, you forgot everything that happened, right?

But, you don't wanna hold my hand and walk through the path ahead of us, right?

But, you hope to keep clear of me, right?

But, you don't care about me anymore, right?

But, you don't give a damn anymore, right?

But, you regret being with me, right?

But, you don't give a shit whether i'm happy or not, right?

But, you don't love me anymore, right?

You don't love me anymore, right?

Right?

Why have you forgotten about us?

Why have you given up on us?

Why don't you love me anymore?

Why don't you tell me the truth about it?

Why don't you tell me that you still love me now?

Why aren't you by my side now?

Why?

You know it, i love you so much.

You know it, i gave you all my heart and soul.

You know it, you hurt me just so much.

You know it, i couldn't live happily without you.

You know it, all i want is you.

All i want is your love and you to be by my side.

That's all.

I've fallen crazily in love with you.

I've changed, 'cause of you.

I'm not as happy as before, because you dissapeared from my life.

I want you back in my life.

I see a future between us.

I know we can last.

I know it.

Is it anything that i've done wrong?

Is it the race?

Is it the attitude?

or, Is it me?

Is it?

Tell me.

I wanna know.

I wanna know that you still love me.

I wanna hear it from your mouth.

I wanna you to hug me so v. tightly.

I wanna have our first month anniversary, second, third, First year, Second year, and forever.

I wanna get kisses from you.

I wanna hugs from you.

I wanna play guitar from you.

Look, there're just so many things that i need and want from you.

So selfish, ain't it?

But, love is selfish.

I'm willing to give up anything, just for you.

Anything.

So why don't you come back?

I'm waiting.

I'll always be.

I love you, haziq.

I love you.

2010-07-19T00:33:00.000-07:00

I MISS THE BIG HUGS THAT HAZIQ USED TO GIVE ME WHEN I WAS SAD OR FEELING TIRED,

I MISS THE TIMES WHERE I COULD JUST LIE ON HAZIQ WHEN I WAS TIRED OR RESTLESS, OR JUST SIMPLY WANNA BE CLOSE TO HIM,

I MISS THE TIMES WHERE HAZIQ WOULD HOLD MY HAND JUST SO VERY TIGHT,

I MISS THE TIMES WHERE I COULD WALK WITH HAZIQ FOR 10+ MINUTES AND NOT EVEN COMPLAIN AT ALL, 'CAUSE WHEN I'M WITH HIM, NOTHING IN THE WORLD BOTHERS ME AT ALL,

I MISS THE TIMES WHERE I CAN LIE ON HAZIQ'S LAP AND FALL SOUNDLY ASLEEP WHILE HE WAS TEACHING HIS BRO, AND EVEN IF HIS LEGS WERE NUMB HE NEVER COMPLAINED,

I MISS THE TIME WHERE I COULD LIE ON HAZIQ'S SHOULDER ON THE LONG BUS RIDE AND FALL ASLEEP SOUNDLY AND HAVE HIM WAKE ME UP WHEN WE REACHED,

I MISS THE TIMES WHERE I COULD JUST LOOK AT HAZIQ FOR AS LONG AS I LIKED, AND HE WOULDN'T MIND,

I MISS THE TIMES HAZIQ WOULD HOLD ME SO VERY TIGHTLY WHEN I WAS ASLEEP, AND NOT DISTURB ME AT ALL,

I MISS THE TIME WHERE HAZIQ AND I PLAYED AROUND IN THE LIBRARY, JOKING AT HIS CHINESE STANDARD,

I MISS THE TIME LOOKING AT HAZIQ PLAYING THE GUITAR, AND HAKIM SINGING ALONG,

I SIMPLY MISS EVERYTHING JUST SO MUCH, BUT ... WHAT CAN I DO EVEN IF I MISS HIM JUST SO MUCH?

NOTHING, 'CAUSE HE DOESN'T LOVE ME ANYMORE,

AND I'M STILL LOVIN' HIM SO MUCH LIKE AN IDIOT.

v. long no happy post le

2010-07-13T00:36:00.000-07:00

hahah. i shall make this a happy post!! if not like i v.v.v emo liddat. hehehe.

see emo kia!! you are the emo one. hahahahahha. :P

haha. okok, no digressing. hahahah. urm... today stayed at home, never go sku 'cause i'm havin gastric pain.... mama man. sucks. hahaha. then... also nothing much. oh oh. slept till............... 12 plus 1 pm? hahahha. shiok man. hahahahha. :D

and MAMA MAN~~~~!!!!!!!!!!!!!! TOMORROW GOT CHEENA ORAL. SO FREAKING WORRIED!!!!!!!!! :x

hey(:

2010-07-10T06:41:00.000-07:00

things seem different now.
the way you text.
i dunno, maybe i'm thinking too much but yeah,
it seems like the case.
comparing last time and now.

perhaps i'm just thinking too much.
i hope so, cause i don't want things to change.

yes, i'm talking about you. you.

seperation.

2010-07-08T08:46:00.000-07:00

EVERYONE CRINGES AT THE THOUGHT OF SEPERATION.

SO DO I.

BUT...

DO YOU?

do you even care?

OR WILL THINGS BE THE SAME WITH OR WITHOUT ME?

perhaps it's the beta.

SORRY.

2010-07-08T05:19:00.000-07:00

OH BACK TO BLOG HERE!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

OKAYY OKAYY. TODAY'S POST IS A SORRY POST.

UUUUUUUUURRRRRRRRRMMMMMMMMMMMMMMMMM.

SORRY PIG!!!!!!!!!!! HAVEN'T BEEN MYSELF LIKE FOR THE PAST FEW DAYS?!

DUNNO WTH IS WRONG WITH ME.

AND I THINK I SCREWED THINGS UP. HAHAHAHHA. NOW LIKE WE BECOME DAMN AWKWARD.

I DUNNO WHY!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

UUUUUUUUUURRRRRRRRRRGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGG.

LIKE GOING TO KE XIAO NOW. HAHAHAHAHAH.

SORRY A MILLION!!!!!!!!!!!!

REALLY. I WANNA BE THINGS TO BE LIKE LAST TIME!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

HAHHAAHAHA. SINCE.... THE TIME I'M LEFT WITH TEXTING IN SINGAPORE IS......

NOT TOO LONG?? HAHHAHAHA. :D:D:D

SO YUP. SORRY OKAYY.

MUST STAY HAPPY!! REMEMBER?? :D:D:D

BROKEN

2010-07-05T00:57:00.000-07:00

i dunno what to say exactly now.
well, urm.... just watched a vid of haziq.
i dunno, saw him smiling in the vid and playing guitar, his favourite, just... you know, glad that he's living happily now. plus, having a gf. or a girl that he likes who should be awesome. hahaha. i dunno, i just feel weird. like, remembering everything. perhaps i haven't recovered from it yet. who knows. but too, who cares? no one. others might just think that i'm mad, a less than a month relationship can make me emo for 6months and counting. but who you are to think that way? you never knew how i really felt. and it sucks, to love someone so much and he's just gone in a night. all those dreams crashed down just so fast and i have to pretend that nothing's happened. try going through what i have. and you'll know how it really feels. worse, having no one's shoulders to cry on. no one to talk to about him. having to take all this shit by myself all the heart broken thing ... it really sucks. really do.

2010-07-05T00:15:00.000-07:00

HEY(:

WELL THIS POST GOT TWO PARTS. TRIBUTES TO 1.BRANDON, 2.C.

1......................

SERIOUSLY, I HOPE YOU'RE NOT COMIN FOR MY SKU BAZAAR MAN.
CAUSE LIKE IF YOU'RE COMIN YOU HAD BETTER NOT BRING CHIN YUEN.
LIKE SERIOUSLY. YOU KNOW WHAT HAPPENED BETWEEN THE BOTH OF US AND ALL THOSE SHIT AND U JOLLY WELL KNOW THAT I DUN WAN TO SEE HIM ANYTIME SOONER. LIKE, I WAS REALLY HAPPY THAT YOU'RE COMIN AND LIKE WE'RE GOING OUT AFTER THAT BUT IF YOU'RE GONNA BRING HIM THEN I REALLY DUNNO HOW TO REACT. WHEN I SAW THAT FREAKING WALL POST, I WAS TOTALLY DISSAPOINTED AND ANGRY MAN. LIKE SERIOUSLY. DIDN'T EXPECT THIS FROM YOU. YOU'RE DISSAPOINTING.

2..........................................

K K. NEED TO CHILL. WELL.... YEAH. GIVE YOU ONE QUARTER OF MY POST. HAD ALOT TO SAY BUT NOW JUST CAN'T GET IT OUT LEH. HAHAHAHAHHA. TYPE SOME OTHER TIME OKAYY.

XIAN.

2010-06-24T04:58:00.000-07:00

URG. GONNA BE A SUPER SHORT POST.
JUST SUPER XIAN NOW.

I DUNNO, MAYBE I SHOULD JUST START EVERYTHING ALL OVER AGAIN.

ANYWAY, MORNING MY PHONE DIED. CANNOT SENSE MEMORY CARD AND SIM CARD. THEN I CHANGED PHONE. THEN THE NUMBER 2,3,8 ALL CANNOT USE. WHO CARES ANYWAY.

THEN.... YUP.
DIDN'T SMS ANYONE.
WHO CARES.
AND, STOPPED TEXTING BRANDON. I DUNNO, JUST SAD ABOUT IT.
BUT I HAVE TO LET GO OF HIM ANYWAY.
SO WHO CARES.

GOING TO ESPLANADE FOR CONCERT TOMORROW.
MAYBE SEEING KWAN HO ETC. LOLS.
SO YUP.
LOLS.

urg. alone. lonely. hahah. nvm. i have brandon and c to text. hahahahha.

2010-06-22T03:55:00.000-07:00

hahha. i'm so so so jealous. why pple have admirer i dun have ah!! hahahahahha. jkjk larh. i'm just damn bored. hahahahha.

today was quite awesome.... hahaha. :D:D:D

went pump as usual, and too, as usual i'm late... by 45 mins. hahaha. so TYPICAL KARYN according to C.YIYING. hahahha.

then.... xiao ding and i zao from pump early, say got guitar then.... went plaza sing!! she really has guitar btw. hahaha. as in we said we had individual guitar lessons. hahhaha.

haha. while typing now, that weird guy who likes doraemon is talking to me just because i was there when he texted her i was beside and he wan me help him jio her. WTF. hahahhaha. i so jealous. nvm. that guy not shuai. hahahahha!! so irritating sia that guy.

hahahah. THAT GUY IS FUCKING IRRITATING. URG. I WISHED I HADN'T WENT TO COMMMENT. I REEEEEEEGGGGGGGRRRRRRRREEEEEEEEETTTTTTTTTTT!!!!!!!!!! WTMAMA. HAHAHAHHAHA.

anyway, thanks to that irritating ass, i dun feel like blogging le so bb!! :D:D:D

KUKU (:

2010-06-21T03:42:00.000-07:00

HEHEHEHE. HI READERS!!!!!!!!!!!
I'M GONNA TYPE IN CAPS!! BUT I'M NOT ANGRY KAY!! HAHA. I JUST LOVE TO TYPE IN CAPS. HEHEHEH.

TODAY KUKU-JUN'S HP GOT CONFISCATED!!!!!!!!!!! :o :o :o HAHAHAHHAHA. SO I HAD TO SMS CHRISTINE TO GET THROUGH 'EM!!!!!!! HAHAHAHHAHA. :D:D:D THEN..... NOTHING MUCH TODAY. HAHAHAHAH.

TODAY RE-EXAM WAS HILARIOUS. HAHHAHA. EVERYONE WAS CHEATING!!!!!!!!!!! HAHAHAHAH. SO FUNNEH. AND THE TEACHER DUN CARE. HAHAHAH.

THEN AFTER RE-EXAM WENT TO MAKAN AT LUCKY WITH SUDARNO AND XIAO DING (DANG) !!!!HAHAHHAHAHA. THEN SUDARNO FOLLOW ME TO WHITESANDS AND THEN SAW KUKU-JUN THERE AND THEN I WAS SUPER NOISY AT LIBRARY THEN AFTER THAT GO HOME!! HAHAHHAHAHA. WE EXCERCISED AS USUAL AND WALK TOGETHER!! AHHHAHHAHAHAH.

KAY-KAYS. END OF POST!! HAHAHAHH. HIGHING AWAY NOW. BRANDON SAY I SMOKE OR EAT DRUG THAT'S WHY SO HIGH. CRAZY. I WAN MY LIFE STILL LARH. SMOKE WHAT!! HAHA. AND I HATE MEDICINE OR MEDICINE-LOOKING-LIKE THINGS. HAHAHA . SO I'M NOT GONNA TAKE DRUGS!! AHAHHAHA. MAYBE DRINK BUT DRUGS AND SMOKE ARE BIG NO-NO. HAHAHAHHA.

SEE YA!! HIGH HIGH HIGH. HAHAH.

KUKU-JUN CALLS ME KUKU-KARYN / KUKU-FACE I THINK. HAHAHHA. :D:D:D

LAUGHING AND SMILING WHEN I FEEL SO HURT INSIDE. WHAT'S HAPPENED TO ME?

2010-06-15T04:22:00.000-07:00

hey readers!! :D:D:D
long time never update.... hahaha.

yesterday went studying with ZI JUN!! :D:D:D first half of the day was not bad, or rather till evening was not bad :D:D:D hahaha. 'cause i spent loads of time with the all-awesome-zi-jun!! :D:D:D to know more bout yesterday please visit [ www.s-cribbled.blogspot.com ] hahaha. above mentioned is zi jun's blog!! and OMFG. she downloaded my unglams to FB. GONNA KILL HER FOR THAT TOMORROW !! :X

=.=ll okayy.... my blog is WAY TOO COLOURFUL NOW. =.=ll

NVM. HAHAHHA.
LAST NIGHT WAS DOING SOME REAL THINKING.... BOUT YEAH....
THEN CLEARED UP STUFF WITH HIM...
THEN BECAME A LITTLE EMO... BUT LIKE, I REALISED THAT ALTHOUGH I WAS EMO, I ACTUALLY WAS LAUGHING AND EVERYTHING WITH MY BRO. LIKE... WHY AM I PUTTING ON A FACADE EVEN WHEN I'M AT HOME. I REALLY DUNNO WHAT'S WRONG WITH ME ALREADY.
BUT STILL, LIKE DUH, TO MAKE A R/S WORK, BOTH PARTIES MUST BE ABLE TO GIVE IN AND ALL THOSE SHIT. SO..... STAYING SINGLE IS LIKE SO MUCH BETTER LARH LOLS!! NO SHOULDER TO LIE ON ONLY MARH!! WUN DIE ONE. HAHA.
ANYWAY, C IS AWESOME!! ITS LIKE EVERYTIME WHENEVER I'M HAPPY OR SAD HE'S ALWAYS THERE LOH. SO C IS MY GOOD BUDDY!! :D:D:D HAHAHAHA. LOVE HIM LOADS FOR ALL THESE MAN.

TODAY WAS AWESOME!! DONE PROJECT WITH WEI FENG, SING YEE, LYNN. :D:D:D HAHAHAH. WASN'T REALLY CONCENTRATING BUT YARH.... HAHAHA. AWESOME-FIED. HAHAHAH.

END OF POST!! BB.

HEY(:

2010-05-23T07:04:00.000-07:00

hey pple!!!!

hahahh!!! talking to barbie doll recently!!!! my last time CO partner!! :D

hah. he really look ALOT like barbie doll!!

hah. not bad. got slim down!! haha lols!!

he's coming to bazaar!! ^^ haha.

for what i dunno..... :O

and pig!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

this bad pig neva pay hp bill then in the end a few days never text!!!!!!!!!!!

i was like so freaking xian and had to log in to msn to talk to him.

wth. URG.

bad pig!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! punch you!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! you cannot retaliate man!!!!!!!!! :@

haha. okok. end of. nights!! XD

watching the rain splatter on the window, flowing down, like my tears.

2010-05-17T03:13:00.000-07:00

things haven't been good these two weeks.

thought that i have forgotton haziq, but, apparently didn't.

instead i realised someone seriously is like haziq.

yet, i can't do anything.

i guess i'm just succumbing to the evil hands of loving someone way too much.

its been 6 months and still counting now.

isn't it too long?

i wonder where the old me dissapeared to; the old me who could survive any break-ups and not be sad.

the old me who does not succumb to the evil hands of love which kills my heart now.

the old me who always smiles truthfully, from the bottom of my heart.

i really dunno where the old me is...

and it really hurts me to see things turn out like that... really hurts...

things have never been good, and will never be good.

2010-05-15T05:04:00.000-07:00

this sucks.
i didn't do it. like seriously.

i dun understand why i'm being disliked or whatsoever.

i thought it was just some sorta concern from a friend to ask a friend to chill.

didn't think you'll think the wrong way.

i wouldn't poke my nose into other's matters, i swear.

who wants trouble man.

i'll be the first to say no.

i just wanna lead my normal sec sku life.

just with a small clique of friends who love each other.

not anything big.

SORRY PIG.

2010-05-12T03:28:00.000-07:00

I'M GETTING PISSED AT PIG FOR NOT TEXTING.

WHICH I TOTALLY HAVE NO RIGHT TO.

AND YET THIS PIG, LET ME GET ANGRY.

WTF.

SIGHS.

I'M JUST PISSED BOUT BEING FORGOTTEN.

NOT ANYTHING ELSE.

CAN'T REALLY SAY PISSED ANYWAY, MUST BE DUE TO MY BAD MOOD THESE DAYS.

BEEN EMOING FOR THREE DAYS STRAIGHT ALREADY.

I DUNNO HOW LONG IS THIS GONNA CONTINUE.

I REALLY DUNNO.

NO NEED COMMENTS FOR THIS POST YEAH READERS. TY.

SORRY PIG.

HEART.

2010-05-10T07:59:00.000-07:00

hey peeps out there (:

TOMORROW'S MY LAST THRID/SECOND PAPER!! WHETHER OR NOT YOU COUNT MUSIC LOLS...

HAHAHA. FUCKED UP PHYSICS MAN TOMORROW.

PACKING BAG NOW WHILE TEXTING PIG.

SIGHS. GONNA TAKE CIRCLE LINE TO SKU TOMORROW CAUSE DAD'S OUTTA COUNTRY YET AGAIN....

SO...... YUPYUP. MAYBE WILL SEE CLASSMATES.

DUNNO LARH. MOOD'S TOTALLY RUINED BY PHYSICS SO YUP.

HAHAH. NIGHTS WORLD.

NIGHTS PIG.

NIGHTS EVERYONE. (:

HEY(:

2010-05-07T00:59:00.000-07:00

HAHAH. I REALLY DUNNO WHAT TO BLOG BOUT NOW!!!
LET'S THINK... SHOULD I BLOG BOUT.... ZI JUN? PIG? OR THE BAD CHONG YONG.....?
HAHAHA. REALLY DUNNO!!!!!!!
OKOK. BLOG BOUT EXAM.

ENGLISH WAS SUCH A BREEZE... I THINK THE MARKING SCHEME'S GONNA BE.... STRICT!!

CHEENA.... WAS.... OKAYY LARH.... HAHAHA. (:

HISTORY WAS..... SO SUCKY!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! NO TIME TO WRITE!!!!!!!!! I KNOW THE ANSWER ONE LEH!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! THEN IN THE END GOT NO TIME. WTH!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

CHEMISTRY..... ONE WORD :D GG.

LIT...... OKOK..... I THINK I SCREWED THE SECOND PART OF MIDSUMMER'S NIGHT DREAM...!! AND GOT NOT ENOUGH TIME... IF GOT MORE TIME I THINK CAN WRITE MUCH MORE LOH!!!

ADDITION MATHS..... I THOUGHT IT WAS EASY!!!!!! BUT BUT..... EVERYONE SAID IT WAS DIFFICULT!!!!!!! I THOUGHT EVERYONE COME OUT WILL BE LIKE ITS SUCH A BREEZE. IN THE END, EVERYONE SAY DIFFICULT, THEN NOW I THINK I'M GONNA FAIL CAUSE I'M THE ONLY ONE WHO THINKS ITS EASY. WTF!!!!

SS!!! URG.... I DIDN'T MANAGE TO WRITE FINISH ONE SIMILARITY!!! AND I REALLY USED 20 MINS TO WRITE THE DAMN ESSAY SIA. AND I MANAGED TO REMEMBER EVERYTHING!!!!!

NOW I THINK I HAVE THE SO CALLED PHOTOGRAPHIC MEMORY... LIKE THIS EXAM PERIOD I JUST READ THE NOTES ABOUT TWO TIMES THEN AFTER THAT DURING EXAM THEN I CAN REMEMBER EVERY SINGLE WORD SIA!!!!!! OMG, HAHAHA.

OH YARH, DUN SAY BAD LARH ZI JUN..... I LOVE YOU!!!!!!! HAHAH. WE SHALL GO CRAZY ENJOYING OURSELVES DURING JUNE!!!!!!!!!!!!! SISTERS!!!!!!!!!! BFF!!!!!!!!! HAHAHA. <3 LOVE YA!!

CHRISTINE!!!! HAHAHA. COME ALONG!!!!!! IT'LL BE FUN!!!!!!!!!! :D

PIG!!!!!!!!!!!!!! HAHAHAH. THANKS FOR HELPING DE STRESS WHEN I WAS PANICKING!!!! AND PLS PLS SLEEP EARLY MAN!!!!!!!!! LATER GOT DARK EYE RINGS I LAUGH...!!!

hey(:

2010-04-29T05:11:00.001-07:00

hey readers!! (:
hahaha. here to tell ya all that i wun be here for quite some time.....
dun miss me!!! i'll be busy mugging!!
hahahahaha.

To bad pig::
hahahaha. i know u feel honoured yeah... so i'm letting u feel honoured again.. hahah. (:
you better sleep early!! hahaha. random lols. sighs. text easier. haahahha.

bye peeps!!

2010-04-26T03:20:00.000-07:00

oh, just wanna post one more thing. haha. dedicated to PIG!!!! the tanned one yeah. and claimed by him, he's hot. haha. ya right man. living in self denial :P

YO PIG!!!! MAYBE YOU'LL KNOW I'M TALKING BOUT YOU IF I ADD THE TANNED AND BLURR PIG. HAHA. BE HONOURED THAT I'M WRITING IN CAPS AND BLOGGING BOUT YOU!! HAHAH. THIS IS A THANK-YOU POST. HAHA. I SO NICE. :P
HAHAH. ANYWAY,
WANNA THANK YOU FOR BEING WITH ME WHEN I'M SAD!!
ENDURING MY NAGGINESS,
ENDURING MY BAD ANGER MANAGEMENT,
ENDURING MY SUPER DUPER CHILDISHNESS,
AND EVERYTHING LARH. HHAHAHAH. AND GETTING SUANED BY ME CONSTANTLY. :P
HAHAHA. I BET YOU'RE FEELING DAMN DAMN DAMN HONOURED NOW MAN. HAHAH. THANK ME!! <3>
HAHA. BUT STILL, I WAS THINKING, LET'S SAY YOU'RE NOT HERE FOR ME TO TALK TO OR WHAT,
I THINK I'L JUST DIE FROM EMO-NESS.
HAHAH. ITS QUITE A NO DOUBT ABT IT THING. HAHHA.
BUT BUT BUT. SOMETIMES HOR, U REALLY MAKE ME SUPER ANGRY SIA. LOLS. HAHAHHA. PUNCH YOU!!! U CANNOT BLOCK. HAHAH. SIGHS. I'M BEING CHILDISH AGAIN. NVM, JUST WANNA SAY THANKS AND LOVE YA !! HAHHAHA. THANKS MAN!

PIGs ftw (:

2010-04-26T03:00:00.000-07:00

hahaha. dunno wassup with the title.
haha. long time since i blogged man!!!! hahah.
well..... this is for ZI JUN!!!!! I'M NEVER GOIN SAKAE IN THIS MONTH OR MAYBE HALF OF THE NEXT.... YOU MADE ME DEVELOP A FEAR FOR SAKAE MAN!!!! BUT I STILL LOVE YOU YEAH. HAHAHA. (:
hahaha. so many things i wanna blog bout now... but no time!!
hahah. oh oh. I LOST MY SHAKESPEAR'S TRANSALATION OF MIDSUMMER'S NIGHT DREAM!!!!!! OMFG MAN. HOW CAN I LOOSE IT AT SUCH AN IMPORTANT MOMENT!!!!
so angry at myself for losing a 20++30 bucks book. WTF.
haha.
just now i was walking back home, i saw this upper sec couple holding hands and walking and talking.. although they obviously looked like they were just steading for the sake of it, i'm still envious of 'em yeah. i wish i have haziq beside me now, like last time, cheering my up whenever i was down, giving me a great hug that i loved always when he sees that i'm tired or sad, taking the initiative to carry all the stuff for me, despite looking a little girly with my handbag and never ever moans, not minding to be my maid and everything.understanding me no matter how inbearable i am sometimes, and getting angry at him for not texting him much the whole day cause he's too obsessed with his soccer. and me yeah-ing away when i realise he can not go for his friday prayer and accompany me the whole day. i was really too much sometimes. but, he beared all that, and loved me despite all that. it might sound dumb, looking at my history of love life, but he's really really, the guy i really loved. from the bottom of my heart. last time, for my ex, i loved him, but not as much, everybody told me that, are you sure? then i got hesitant. but this time round, although it was really really shocking to my buddies, i still stood to me thinking, and would straightforwardly tell them that yes, i am sure, and i love him even though he's a malay and everything. i must sound very crazy now, but its true. from the bottom of my heart. i couldn't sleep without hugging him. i couldn't. but i had to get used to it. i couldn't get close to couples, as i would feel hurt and emo for the rest of the days. BUT, i have to live with it. i have to put on a fake smile sometimes, even though i'm hurting so much on the inside just by thinking of him. going to e!hub on rainy days made my heart sore, as i remembered the time where we froze at e!hub together, and despite how cold you are, you still held on to me tightly and gave me warmth. its really the small things that he does, to show me his love. come to think of it, i've done nothing for him. nothing. he deserves better. maybe that's why i lost him. maybe..

yo peeps (:

2010-04-06T05:57:00.000-07:00

wow! i so so so so long haven blog lerh. ):
hehehe. but but... pai seh!!!!!!!! everything that happen are personal!!!!! ): hahha
i guess yy knows why..... (:
haah. but there's this particular thing i wanna post....
I TWISTED MY ANKLE OR RATHER MY WHOLE RIGHT LEG YESTERDAY!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!1
WORSE IS I DIDN'T FEEL ANY PAIN YESTERDAY TILL LIKE TODAY AFTERNOON THEN IT STARTED HURTING REALLY BADLY. SO BADLY THAT I HAD TO CAB HOME CAUSE I WASN'T CONFIDENT OF GOING HOME MYSELF WITHOUT BREAKING MY LEG...
I STILL WANT MY LEGS KAY!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! (:
hahaha. wah.
I WANTED TO LIKE TUI NA ONE LOH,
THEN WHEN THE PHYSICIAN STARTED PRESSING TO SEE WHAT'S WRONG, I STARTED SCREAMING LIKE MAD CAUSE THE PAIN IS JUST..... UNBEARABLE!!!!!!!!!!
IN THE END I HAD ACCUPUNCTURE.
WTH MAN.
THE THING I'M MOST AFRAID OF BESIDES INSECTS ARE NEEDLES MAN.
THEY ARE JUST SO SO SO SO SO SCARY.
IMAGINE IT POKES THROUGH YOUR SKIN!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
OMG MAN!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! WTH. =.=ll
HAHAH. SO OBV, I WAS MAKING A FOOL OF MYSELF LARH,
BUT LUCKILY THE TCM CLINIC THERE GOT NOBODY :P
hehehe. okok. done with my post (:
hahahhah. see ya!!! (:

abit of emoing today..

2010-03-27T04:44:00.000-07:00

hmmm.... haha. one shanghai trip really changes everything!!!!!!! (:
i bet 3LY would become MUCH MORE BONDED (:
love it! haha.
well... but here it goes.. i'm losing a person i can talk to. hahah.
as in not that kinda lost in love.
is... ayah. dunno how to say larh.
hahaha.
just trying to adjust back to the days where i have to like face everything alone...
trying to dig out my ''how to be happy everyday'' notes from my brain...
haah. i seriously dun wanna emo yeah.
cause i have a lovely class now!!!!!
nothing much to emo about.
so yup. i'm gonna stay strong yeah.
i'll just let things happen the way they are supposed to go,
and i'll enjoy myself thoroughly while they are happening.
cause i'm KARYN CHOY!!!!!! (:

hey.

2010-03-26T07:05:00.001-07:00

today's post is dedicated to... urm... someone. important. yarh.
urm. haziq.
hey. i'm not sure bout what problem you're talking bout on your fb, but just in case, its bout your parents, again, just continue reading yeah.
urm, can't really say much here, but just,... remember that time i told u your parents would come home for dinner as usual? remember?
yarh. i was correct, right?
well, i dunno if you still remember what i said when u asked me how i knew,
but i'll just repeat again,
its cause they love u and hakim and howa.
yup, i'm sure they do.
i know that u know too.
so, its normal when your parents quarrel!!!
but i'm sure they'll put you and your siblings first before they have any decisions yarh.
so ... dun emo or what kay.
remember, you still have your siblings to take care of.
so stay strong.
yeah? i know u can.
so yup. talk to hadi if you have probs! (:
haha. i know he'll listen .

PIANO EXAMMMMSSSS!!! (:

2010-03-23T09:10:00.000-07:00

WASSUSUUUPPPP READERS!!! (:

hahah. tomorrow is my piano exam!! ( ABRSM GRD 8 )
hahha. i'm freaking excited for my exam tomorrow!!! hahaha.
cause.... i'm freaking confident you know!!
i seriosly dunno why the hell am i so confident.
haha. BY RIGHT, grade 8 leh, i should be nervous etc.
haha. but.... BY LEFT, i am so not nervous!! cause i think i did all my practices well enough le barh.... hhaa. first time i actually paid attention to scales ESPECIALLY, cause its the section i hate most!!! (: haha. and i am memorising and practicing my AURAL!!! hahaha.
i'm quite shocked myself that i actually did all this on MY OWN WILL!!!!!
haha(: CAN SEE THAT I'M REALLY DETERMINED TO PASS THIS EXAM HUH.
haha. come to think of it, i really thank the examiner for failing my previous grade 8,
i used to tell pple, that examiner suck big time man, he fail me by 4 marks.
but come to think of it, i really really did not deserve to pass.
i was like so so so unprepared, with the ''ayah, never fail before, confirm wun fail one larh '' kinda attitude. really deserce some scolding man. haha. so must thank MS LAM!!!!
my lovely MS LAM!!! ahahh!!! she really taught me alot alot of techniques!!! including how to present myself, how to feel a piece, and tell me all my mistakes!!!
and putting in so much effort, and risking the chance of growing white hair!!!
haha. she taught me piano since i was... 5???
haha. so she literally watched me grow up!!! (: so cool right.
hhah!! she's seriously not the kinda teacher who only cares bout money.
its like she charges quite low... but she teaches better than any teacher in this world man i tell you. pple !! be jealous that i have such a good teacher.!
i really improved alot under her teaching!!!
haha. although i'm FOREVER nervous before her lesson cause i'm afraid that i'll get scolding..
haha. come to think of it, i'm really dumb sia.
haha. why wait till exam almost coming then come PING!!! haha.
but seriously, i feel like a performer who's fit to teach already.
like seriously, i dun have the kinda student feel le.
its like i'm confident i can pick up a piece, and excel in it!!! (:
haha. so yarh... THANKS MS LAM AND I LOVE U!!! (:
haha. ok ok. gotta go sleep (: haha.
exam at my FAVOURITE YAMAHA TAMPINES STUDIO!!! (:
HAHA. SORTA GREW UP PLAYING PIANO THERE(:
SO YARH, CONSIDER MYSELF LUCKY(:
HAHA. WISH ME LUCK!!! ( although i already have from quite some pple, )
(: see ya readers!!!
oh oh. forgot to add....
MOMMY AND DADDY BRINGING ME TO BUFFET LUCH TOMORROW AFTER MY EXAM!!
AND I HAVE A NEW VOLKSWAGON THE JETTA!!!
I TELL U, THAT CAR'S COOL MAN. 8s to reach a speed of 100km/min.
cool right. haha. so be jealous man.!!!! (:

see ya all!! lalala. exam !!! (:
p.s. call me a performer!! (: haha,

sometimes things are just that complicated...

2010-03-20T06:35:00.000-07:00

everyone's at shanghai now yeah... and i'm in singapore. sighs.
literally cried last night!!! cause yarh... dunno why.
sometimes, things just get really really complicated.
its like sometimes i dun even know what i'm thinking you know.
its like, having the urge to do something that i really want to, but i have to stop myself.
sometimes things are just meant for keeping to yourself.
sometimes things are meant for you to guess.
sometimes things are meant for deciding.
sometimes things are just so simple yet made so complicated.
its a make or break thing yeah.
but i choose to keep things just the way they are, maybe sufffering a little on my side.
sometimes its like i'm forgettin haziq, concentrating on my new life,
but sometimes it just hurts me just so much.
but that was a few weeks ago i guess.
something else is hurting me right now.
just applying more salt to my wound.
i'm really trying to not go back to the august or december period,
not wanting to keep pple away from me from my emo-ness.
i'm trying really hard, believe me.
but i can't promise that i'll be happy.
i can't.

BASTARD. FEEL HONOURED THAT I DEDICATED ONE POST TO YOU.

2010-03-17T04:09:00.000-07:00

ok. hi. i'm v. ji dong now!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! :(

so i'm gonna make a freaking angry post here. please ignore the vulgars cause i'm really pissed.

(HEY MR ''BUS DRIVER OF BUS 3'' .
IN CAE YOU DUNNO WHAT I'M TALKING ABOUT, I'M SAYING THAT YOU'RE A FUCKING BASTARD.
WHEN THE FUCK HAVE I EVER KAO-PEHD YOU?! YOUR BRAIN SOMETHING WRONG IZZIT?! OR YOUR EYES SOMETHING WRONG?! OR ARE YOU TOO HAPPY TORTURING YOURSELF WITH TWO GIRLS WHO ARE TRUE TO YOU AND THEN BLAME OTHERS FOR SCREWING THINGS WHEN ITS YOU???!!!! FUCK YOU MAN. U CAN EVEN THINK PROPERLY. YOU ARE FREAKING CONFUSED AND THEN YOU TAKE HER AS A SPARE. AND LET ME TELL YOU, SHE'S SO NOT A SPARE. SHE'S A NICE GIRL WHO'S NOT WORTH OF YOUR FUCKING TREATMENT AND OBVIOUSLY DESERVES SO MUCH BETTER. SO YOU FUCKING SHUT UP AND STOP STALKING HER. DUN EVEN HARBOUR THE THOUGHT OF GETTING BACK WITH HER.
SECONDLY. WTF WERE YOU TRYING TO SAY THAT ''I THOUGHT SHE DAMN LOUSY ONE SIA'' YOU THINK YOU V. GOOD IZZIT. DUN UNDERESTIMATE ME MAN. I CAN BET WITH MY LIFE THAT I'M SO SO SO SO SO MUCH BETTER THAN YOU THAT YOU'RE JUST A PIUNY LITTLE ANT, OR RATHER EVEN SMALLER THAN AN ANT AND I CAN SQUASH YOU WITHOUT THINKING ABOUT IT. ITS BECAUSE YOU'RE INSULTING ME THAT'S WHY I'M INSULTING YOU. SO YARH. I ONLY TREAT IDIOTIC PPLE IN IDIOTIC WAYS SO SHUT THE FUCK UP. ASS HOLE CUM BASTARD.

FINALLY, TWO WORDS FOR YOU.

FUCK OFF. )

more photos. (:

2010-03-14T19:04:00.001-07:00

photos from e-awards!!

2010-03-14T08:07:00.001-07:00

THIS IS ABT 1/12 OF TOTAL PHOTOS!!! OMG RIGHT!

HAHA. I NEEDA GO SLEEP.

SO CONTINUING TOMORROW!!! XD

2010-03-14T04:48:00.000-07:00

new LAPPY!!! NEW EARPIECE!!! NEW THUMBDRIVE!!!

i'm the happiest girl alive man!!! i got my new stuff yest!!! mommy and daddy went to buy while i went for the e-awards!!!! hahaha!!!! E-awards was freaking funny i tell you.... hahahah!!!!
at first when the other artists came out, the screaming vol. max was only 1-3. when SHINEE came out, it shot all the way to 10!!!!! oMG right!!! hahahah!!!!

i almost turned deaf okayy!
hahah! oh. 4got to say. i went with jia qi, germaine and rachel!!!
i seriously pity germaine!!!

she's always meeting pervetic uncles who talk loads of shit and try to hit on her.!!!

WTF right!!!

yesterday that uncle horn the car horn in tempo somemore!!! FREAKING NOISY,IRRITATIN AND EXTRA!!!

then the car which tio horn like doing some hand stuff in his car.

hahah. if i'm him i'll just open window and point middle finger. hahahah!! XD

whee~~ the ticket!!!

hahah! we went to find yu jia and ying xing yesterday!!!! hahaah!!!!!

then we went to camwhore!!!! they acted kwee kwee sia!!! freaking funny!!!!

yu jia act bimbo damn cool!!! no one can outwin sia!!!hahahah!!!

the freaking big balloon in the air!

SHINEE plus other artists on the stage!!! look at the crowd.....

my lappy!!!! vaio!!! the E-series!!! the newest model!

windows 7 home premium( 64. bit.) , hard disk drive 500GB and memory 4GB. !! XD

whee!!!~~~ chio right.... hahaha!!!!

you know what pple??? DRAGONS are cute!!!! hahaah!!!! they love me!!! so dun say that they love you!!! hahaahh!!! i think i too high liao. hahaha. need to go drink coconut drink to chill!!!! hahaha!!! will come back with somemore pics peeps!!! see ya!!!

-laryn(: -

2010-02-15T02:10:00.000-08:00

HAPPY CHINESE NEW YEAR !!!! :D

woo hoo.....~~ its cheena new year!!! haha!!!!
watching kenny and livia playing wii at my house!^^ haha!!!
just now was playing rayman and its freaking funny i tell you...
we were dancing like idiots!!! haha!!!

how the 1st day of cheena new year was spent... ..... XD

Morning woke up at 10 i think...
i woke up a million times before that, hoping that time would fly!!!
hah. guess i was too excited for CNY.
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then after that went to the temple to pray!!! ^^
you know, you're supposed to like put th stuff you're going to pray including the papers on the table, then you go around praying first, then you go back to the table and collect the papers then go burn.
after i went to pray and everything,
THE PAPERS WERE GONE!!!!! * OMG *
i was like,
me: ''eh, where's mine? ''
mom: '' OH YARH HOR!!!! OMG!!! WHERE IZZIT???!!! ''
me: '' oh shit.... ''
mom & dad : ** hahahahhahahahahahhahahahahahh! * '' bo bian lor...''
me: * gave the wth face.
mom: '' ok larh ok larh. hha. you share with me larh. ''
me: '' okay loh... (thinking: can meh??? stupid person take my paper. ass. )

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haha. funny sia. haha!
then after that went straight to papa( godfather ) 's house as usual,
to meet all my cousins and aunties and everyone!!!!! haha!
then after that... HERE COMES THE BOOMBASTIC NEWS>.....

MY ANOTHER GODFATHER ACTUALLY MADE MY COUSINS AND ME SIT WITH HIM AND DRINK CHIVAS WHISKY!!! omg RIGHT. HAHA.
THEN I WAS LIKE SITTING AT THE CORNER, THEN HE WAS LIKE, DARLING, BOTTOMS UP!!! p.s whole family calls me darling^^

IN THE END, I ENDED UP DRINKIN LIKE QUITE A FEW PACKS OF WHISKY THEN MY FACE TURNED RED BUT WAS OKAY. HAHA.

after confirming that my godfather was drunk and went to sleep,
we went to watch VALENTINE'S DAY!!!!
HHAA!
the movie was damn funny i tell you....
THE TWO CUTEST guy in the movies are GAYS!!!!!
OMG. I THOUGHT THEY WERE GOING TO KISS OKAYY.... HAHA!!! XD

ok ok. Dinner Time!!! hahahah!!!
I GO MAKAN LE!!!! BE JEALOUS!!! HAHA!

BTW.... WHISKY NOT BAD!! HAHA. :P

Xaiver ^^

2010-02-08T07:02:00.001-08:00

hmm.....
recently i've been talking to xaiver quite alot oh...
haha. i dunnoe, maybe i should just give him a chance???
but i just can't forget you.
sighs....
i'm trying really hard to move on, cause i know that u like another girl already.
ITS SO OBVIOUS.
haha. but still, i dun believe that you dun love me.
i feel so dumb!!!! haha.
i'm such a dumb ass.
WOW.

-karyn-

- i thought this love would never end. -

2010-02-06T06:16:00.000-08:00

WESTLIFE'S FOOL AGAIN~

i feel like a fucking idiot.

i thought i forgotten about you.

but apparently, i haven't.

i thought my emoing days would end.

but its starting all over again.

the cycle.

its starting again...

i have been keeping happy for the past month.

and i believe you are genuinely happy.

i thought i too, was.

but now, i dunnoe if i was.

seeing you online on fb almost everyday was a torture.

i wanted to talk to you, but i couldn't.

its like, why can't i remain friends with you and admire you from afar?

maybe it'll be easier for me to give you up this way.

sighs. i guess i'll just have to cry myself to sleep tonight again.

STUPID EMO CYCLE>

FUCK OFF!!!!

2010-01-24T04:20:00.000-08:00

WISHING THAT I COULD BE A SO VERY PRETTY LITTLE GIRL THAT EVERYONE LOVES ME.

i think i'll post photos today!!! hahah!!!

My little bro JAYDON! he gave me this face cause he caught me snapping photos of him... hehe....

cheryl and me in toilet after exam!!! haha!!! ^^

OMG. daddy needs to use laptop! haha. blog some other day.

2010-01-17T22:53:00.000-08:00

hi people.... so long never blog le....
haha. pai seh luh. cause i super busy.
let's see... i shall talk about 3LY!!!
hahaa. cause 3ly rocks to the core of the core of the core! haha!
we rawk man. hah.
we're quite bonded in a sense that we dun quarrel . not at all. haha.
there's not personal fued in anyone either^^
sounds great yeah?
haha.
and OMG. can u believe it pple?!
i'm actually the vice-chair!!!
OMG!!! haha. and BENEDICT LEE is the vice-chair of 3DL!
i seriously have to congratulate 3DL for having such a ''fabulous'' vice chair man.
haha! urm... let's see...
sitting with WEILIANG was not bad larh.
except for the fact that i keep getting scolded by him as a CRAZY WOMAN.
hahaha! cause i call him go join dance for creative arts then i bother him about that for like almost the whole day plus at night i bother him too! haha! so cool right.
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ok, here comes the part of how i'm trying to cope with my feelings now.

honestly, i dun feel like saying much larh,
cause its like i've been trying to like turn things around,
and then trying to find someone to talk to about it,
but no one is free.
everyone is like busy with their own relationships.
then they now happy happy you can't expect me to go and say something sad to them and then expect some real solutions from them right...
so yarh... liddat loh.
i can only bottle up i guess.
but still, i still dun understand why.
NVM.
i'm still putting on a smiley face on everyone's face everyday,
keeping that smile on my face too. so yarh. hope things will turn well.
and hope i dun become super emo.
cause i can feel that i am a little more emo liao.
so yarh.

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see ya readers.

2010-01-04T06:09:00.000-08:00

FIRST DAY OF SCHOOL!!!

today was rather fantastic!!! haha!!! hmm.... let's start with the morning!! haha. i was quite high this morning cause its school time AGAIN! haha! then i saw this gal, at the staircase , then i said hi randomly, then i realised that we were from the same class and we're all from o level music!!! WOW! haha!

ALL MY TEACHERS ARE GREAT MAN.

haha! i really love them!!! haha! they're great man. like seriously. not too fierce, not too linient, hehe. and the y teach not bad i guess^^

time for new year resolution!!!

- study super hard and score super results man.... hehe... must work hard for my VAIO LAPTOP!
- spend quality time with my bro!!! he's growing so fast! HAHA!
- URM... i wun say i that i wanna forget HIM. i would say i wanna live on with whatever i have now.
- hope for a miracle with him ba

2009-12-15T22:55:00.000-08:00

IT SLIPPED AWAY AGAIN.

HI peeps! haha.
if you're observant enough, i deleted the boyfriend thingy. haha.
cause yarh, we broke.
so what?
haha.
i'm just joking.
i can't possibly be laughing away right.
but then leh... i've learnt to face it. haha.
second time le leh,
but still hor,
why're things so stupid?
when i really love a person, the person just... just seems to dump me.
so sad right. haha.
anyway, i learnt quite some things from these two incidents, and i think i paid a big price for it.

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don't ever be too close to a guy; even your friend.

eg. you two were ex-classmates, then you two started talking alot and texting alot, then you two realize that you two like each other, then get together, thinking, GREAT! i've my good buddy as my boyfriend, that's the best combi man. and i love him to the core, from the bottom of my heart, like really.

because, things will not last long, and you'll realize that all the sweet times are gone. and you're left along AGAIN>

and you lost two v. important things: boyfriend, and good buddy.

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oh. forgot to add,

TREASURE YOUR GOOD BUDDIES<>
B'CAUSE NO MATTER HOW PETTY OR WIERD YOU THINK THEY ARE,

THEY"RE THE ONES WHO GIVE YOU A GOOD PAT ON THE SHOULDER AND TELL YOU THAT YOU STILL HAVE THEM AND YOU SHOULD CHEER UP.

so yarh. i think that's about all. oh yarh. the photos i promised!!!!!! i go dig the memory card. hopefully i can find. maybe daddy took it to office.. for what i dunnoe leh. hah.

i'll give the photos! dun worry

2009-12-12T05:14:00.000-08:00

不会分离~ bu hui fen li~ never apart.

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hmmm.... let's start with last night's piano lesson. haha.
[sorry readers.. all my posts seem to be dedicated to someone ... sorry! ]
last night's piano lesson went not bad... haha.
hmm. why're you always right about things?
haha. everytime you say that something that i was v.worried abt will turn out bad, you'll tell me that its okayy and it really turns out okayy.
perhaps its the confidence that you give me, telling me that i can do it.
pro huh. haha.
then today's piano lesson leh.... wah... teacher so fierce!!!!! omg!
so scary. haha. then casey like v. pissed liddat.
i almost texted you just now... after lesson... cause usually i'll text you after lesson to tell you abt lesson...
but luckily i remembered that i can't.
but still... i really am tempted to text you... its like... i can't hold it anymore...
so now i'm trying to keep my phone unseen...
i really miss you.
do you?
sighs.... its like everyday seems so lifeless to me already.
its just like the usual routine, me looking like a zombie, v.tired, walking arnd. sighs.
you took my soul with you! omg. haha.
oh oh! i can memorise abt half the chords for [bu hui fen li] le!!!
haha. i'm gonna print out [tong hua] and practice it on piano!
so next time you play the guitar, i play the piano^^
like you promised.hehe.
sighs. nothing much to talk abt.
perhaps i'll come back tomorrow with alot of photos! cause i'm going to sentosa! hehe.
ily.

2009-12-11T02:57:00.000-08:00

不会分离~ bu hui fen li~ never apart.

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hmmm.... i'm back again! haha.
sighs... today i think i slept until 12++. hehe. cause wake up early also nothing to do marh...
no impt. pple to msg, so although i keep waking up; i think three times ah, but i still force myself to go back to sleep^^ so pig right haha.
hmm... dun deny that last night never cry la huh. haa. i v.honestt.
but dunnoe why last night turn here turn there can't sleep then just keep crying. sadded barh. haha.
OOOHHH! 20 days countdown to next year!
perhaps next year i'll be alive again...
wah. i got great achievement!!!
i managed to complete the whole of BU HUI FEN LI on guitar!
so now trying to brush up skills.
but got a few chords i dunnoe how to play leh.
But i'm not gonna learn how to play those myself! hehe.
cause i wanna wait for you to teach me nxt time. you promised!

then i v.good gal today oh.
i help my mummy pack all the stuff^^
wah... so tired now... waiting for daddy to come fetch me and go for piano lesson.
hopefully when i go there i wun start crying... cause.... yarh... he went there with me before.
hmm... KARYN CHOY MUST STAY STRONG O!
AND YOU MUST STAY STRONG TOO.

if your family got problem, its okay to cry.

but not too many times okayy?

because your siblings still need you, the elder brother.

plus cry too much eyes will pain!

so if you're unhappy, think of me o!

hehe. cause that's what you told me to do when i was.

MUST STAY STRONG O!

cause i wun be there to lend you a shoulder when u need.

so perhaps just hug your lil bro if you can't sleep and need something to hug.

and and.... i'm practicing v. hard for the song and you must too!

most importantly, must always listen to bu hui fen li oh.

and must always think of me!

ily.

oh, and, if you see the kingfisher while goin home,

take a photo for me oh.

cause i think the kingfisher v. cute^^

love ya.

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不会分离~ bu hui fen li ~ never be apart.

2009-12-10T06:07:00.000-08:00

不会分离~ bu hui fen li ~ never be apart.

hey pple. i changed my blogskin like finally! haha.
but... just when i thought that things were v.good, it just suddenly turned bad. sad right.
oh yarh, and i deleted alot of posts, cause i hought they were the past which i had to throw away. haha.
i dunno how to start leh... urm...
baically i want to blog about love life today larh. haha.

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how to say leh... urm...
let's start with.
i love you.
so yarh... obv, when u told me abt it, i was sad, like very. haha.
i mean, of course got cry larh, commen sense.
urm... quite alot. haha.
ayah. wash eyes a while nvm.
but... i really dun wanna break. of course i don't want to.
cause...
''its difficult to find someone who loves you, and you love him, too, from the bottom of your heart.''
After k's incident, i;ve never been like really happy from the bottom of my heart.
but after we were together, i enjoyed every minute and second with you. really.
i just can't seem to get you out of my heart and mind. haha.
and my family always say i crazy cause i can do things halfway then suddenly laugh. haha.
but its cause i'm thinkin of you.
so... although i can't really live without msg-ing you, but i'll try.
like try REALLY hard...
cause i know that you love me still.
its the thing that keeps me going now...
its like... i think i'll just crumble into pieces if that vital thing, your love is taken away from me.
i will.
but still, i love you. alot.
i am still naively hoping that maybe someday your dad will be a vehly nice person, and approve of us.
i am stil hoping, haha. dumb right.
but i'm still waiting for you to come and hold my hand, waiting for you to come and hug me and be my bolster and let me sleep tightly in your arms, with you hugging me, kissing me, and watching me sleep. i really miss that.
but still, this shall be the thing that keeps me going until new year.
cause i really am hoping for time to fly now. fly all the way until new year.
then i could talk to you again.
i just hope that maybe i can get abit of updates here and there abt you, and know that you're fine.
oh. and if u read this, update your blog! i'll be visiting v.often o!

lastly,

i love you, and i miss you.

holidays are supposed to be happy.. aren't they?

2009-03-16T19:33:00.000-07:00

i'm a little on the emo side today... well... cause u see, i've a friend msg-ing me, but i a little reluctant.but i still reply and stuff. Then come to think of it, i thought to myself '' is ww msg-ing me reluctantly?? '' oh, btw, ww is my online friend luh.... we spam each other's inbox alot .... but its like, when i dun get his msg i'm uncomfortable, and then even though he says that its ok, but its like i' really scared that ww is just reluctantly msg-ing me. But come to think of it, when pple are reluctant to msg you, they dun msg you like '' morning ^^ '' on some mornings when we take turns to msg each other in the morning... then its like, it just doesn't make sense. I dunno why i m having a frantic over this, but its really pulling my mood down... so... the morning part make sense, doesn't it??? Nah.... hey guys, i need your comments bout this... so just... leave a comment or tag on the tag board. ty anyway...

common tests period =X

2009-02-26T03:58:00.000-08:00

nothing much to write about today... haha... all was that it was raining horribly today, and i saw zi jun, christine and crystal kok today. crystal kok really da nai ba xia..... i oso not so big... haiz....
oh ya; for zi jun: wei tai!!! please stop playing with zi jun too much at night, later she in the morning no jing shen!
haha... jkjk. today was making fun of zi jun and black spects... haha.... see ya!

Taking HIM out of my life......

2009-02-20T03:52:00.000-08:00

Hey peeps, well, think u all very curious why i so angry with daniel lim jun hoong right??? haha... especially keith wong... haizz.... bother me for one whole day for the damn answer... think i will write here ba.... think i will sound despo, but the focus is on him, not me.

CHAPTER ONE ... haha....
--- well, daniel and i are sort of best friends since we were p4. i still remember, when li dan, jia yi, yi jie and i were sitting in a circle talking away, cause teacher not here, then he suddenly come over, pat my back, and told me that he saw me the day before,( a weekend) at fish & co. . i was astonished, though, cause when i was p4 not really socialise to boys as much as now.... not so crazy la.... now i socialise like crazy... haha... last time is so so, somemore, daniel switched class from those behind to my class, i think. this part not very vivid in my memory.. its good enough that i remember the main points, remembering the point that i have short-term-memory. then think i went to him, then after that we started chatting , and then became superb friends... to think we even ate the same thing, and shared a fillet.. haha.... that was... nice, though... haha. XD initially, thought things would stay as they are, but, i was wrong, though,.... haha. :'( well, p5 onwards we grown more apart, but still good friends.... haha... he comes to my house quite often barh,.... he even know where my stuffs are... LAST TIME.... dun even think he gives a damn abt it now... anyway, things got worse in p6, as i was trying my v. best to keep the friendship going on, without tearing it apart anymore, or hurting the wound that was there already.... but then, of course things didnt went my way. also, i had to concentrate on PSLE, so not much time to bother abt this kinda stuff.. haha.

CHAPTER TWO.. .haha//

--- well, then sec one we still occasionaly meet up, but then really feel super bad and irritated abt us flying apart.. u know,,... that kinda, feeling.... well... just doesn't feel good. then last year, i think, we wanted to go and watch twilight.... he said ok, to going out, though.... In the end, when everyone was callled and everything, cause i always let him relaz; every time we go out, i am always the one who wastes messages asking pple n telling pple the info, then he just go out can already... but this time, i did everything too; in the end, he cancelled it without telling me AT ALL. i was, super angry, maybe because it is the first time he did that, and also, the first tim where a boy did not call to cancel stuff with me... whenever guys wanna go out with me, its always they arrange.... but for daniel's case, i am always the one arranging..... @ first, i wanted to ignore him, cause i was QUITE angry.... but when i saw him at downtown east again, my heart literally melted, all the angriness was GONE ..... I was super high when i saw him.... then i explained everything to him, then we decided to go out on valentine's day , since this year i am single on valentine's day... He was supposed to plan everything this time, though.... cause i knew i could live with it even if HE CALLED TO CANCEL. in the end, the same thing happened again..... HE DIDN"T CALL TO CANCEL THE OUTING< . luckily, i called the others to cancel it, or there would be more victims. well, anyway, this time I AM REALLY ANGRY ALREADY. normally, if any guys does this to me, at the first time he did it, i would not bother to contact that guy anymore,,..... but like i said, so many years of friendship..... well, dunno why i forgiven him the first time anyway.,.... well, i am not angry because he cannot make it. I AM ANGRY BECAUSE HE DIDN:T EVEN BOTHER TO CALL TO CANCEL THE DAMN THING! freak! well, now i AM still angry, and think i would decide to get HIM our OF MY LIFE. everything about him would be erased. I CAN LIVE WITHOUT HIM. he is not my husband or whatsoever , that i have to rely on him so so so much. i think i have better friends than him. FOR GOD"S SAKE, THIS IS THE FIRST TIME I AM SO ANGRY WITH SOMEONE BEFORE<> well, remember?/ out of sight, out of mind. he's out of MY sight, whih means OUT OF MY MIND.

JoNas BroThers!!! and lidan's house...

2009-02-20T02:54:00.000-08:00

haha..... well, recently, took a liking to Jonas Brother's songs! OMG... they rock ok?? haha..... and Nick Jonas is so so so super cute! His voice is nice too.... dun know how to put it... sexy?? haha... and i love ''burning up'' by 'em...... if u havent listen,go and listen, abd you will know why i say that its super nice... haha.... two weeks more to common test, and then finally can take a short rest; a super short one, though.... today went to Li Dan's house.... then her dog YUKI is super big.... 2 year only.... female.. haha... she loves me, although its our first time meeting... i freaked out at the first time, but after which, think i love her too... haha... cause we're both too cute! haha.... kidding ok?? hehe// today four of us all go to elias mall to eat at mac donalds, haha.... then all of us order mc spicy.,... we eat until alorst cry.... ZI JUN mad one... crazy clown... add chilli sauce to the burger, then eat half way, keep complaining that it is super spicy..... haiz... haha... listening to Jonas brothers' love bug now.... its nice... haha... hey, pple, leave a message ok?? haha..... of at least tag to let me know that u viewed this... aha

VALENTINE"S DAY??

2009-02-06T18:31:00.000-08:00

sighs....... so sad now can? remaining single is not exactly good btw. for example, valentine's day is shining at my face. last year still received present from 5 guys. this year sucks!! none... haha.all told them to give up... in the end, i still have to buy valentine's day present for myself. all my 3 good buddies all got bf and gf to go out with, then i stuck in the house....... sighs.......dun noe how to entertain myself..... ='(

OH YA! PPLE WHO WANNA BUY BREAKING DAWN/ IS WAITING<> TRY ANY POPULAR OUTLETS EXCEPT THE PAYA LEBAR ONES

HOPE THAT I DUN HAVE ANY LOVE LIFE TILL 18!

2009-01-24T03:07:00.000-08:00

oh hi, again.
well, looking at the title, guess you will know what is this post all about, because i flunked in sec 1 , i really want to work hard and obtain good results in sec 2. i dun wanna regret. so i decided that i really should not waste my time on relationships anymore. it not only hurts me, but also wastes my time, effort and so on. and it directly affects my studies. so, you know, that's why i decided TO STAY SINGLE TILL 18. i dun regret , honestly. i am even proud of it.

But, guess that its something that has been in me from primary 1 onwards. i personally like to mix with guys alot, and often have very short and easy crushes on them. so, i controlled myself totally, recently. but, recently, i found out that my good buddy has a crush on my tution mate. wll, i tried putting them together, instead of that, something else just happened. well, BUT, i must say, i like him. but honestly, its AS A FRIEND! i realise he has chnged, but to a better stage now. so , good luck for me for preserving it to so long!

anyway, THE 2ND PARAGRAPH WAS JUST A TWIST IN THE HALF SORY HALF FACT THING I WAS TRYING TO MAKE UP, SO, JUST, HAN LIN AND GERALD, GOOD LUCK AND I LOVE YOU ALWAYS, as a friend, GERALD!

HAPPY CNY!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

my new life in Sec 2!

2009-01-18T00:00:00.000-08:00

well, u noe when i was in sec 1, i flunked my exams... very sad u see. . . worst of all, i had to spend my december holidays studying and taking re-exams. . . but now, new life! come-on!turned over new leaf, and will score betta XD come on, cheer me on ok?? haha, and i vowed to be single till 18!!! heheh

2008-10-30T22:55:00.000-07:00

yox!!! all!!! XD

drama night is finally over............... actually oso a little sad..... LOLZ.... dunno why.... u noe, emptiness..... haha.,... lOL/.... i was acting as Zheng bang's gf/wife....... LOLZ!!! during the reharsal we weren't even looking at each other's eyes! OMG! super embarrasing! XO but after all, was okay lol.... nxt time then update u more.....
GO 2 http://onetheharmony-o8.blogspot.com to view more XD .... there's one video in there, named the hei she hui NG.... the gal wearing red iz me... haha....lolz.... i scolded that guy cause he stepped on my foot??? haha..... tat guy is my 'bro' thats y we 2 are very close.... dun tink otherwise arh!

karyn!

Teachers's day XD ......

2008-09-01T20:56:00.000-07:00

yo all.....dis is my 2nd blog...... 1st blog was in a total mess.......well, not really happy in sku lol...... some poopies say tat i flirt, then tok crap behing me........ SUCKS! primary sku iz e best lol..........

last friday, e whole of 6'courage, or rather, one quarter la.... arnd 13 poopies.... took MRT frm Tanah Merah back 2gether..... { how i appear dere har??? } haha...cause poopies like daniel, keith, Jing Hui etc. all @ anglican high mah....... not like me, in the HIGH CLASS Chung Cheng high main.....haha..... jkjk la..... later the whole gang come find me..... no offence la.,,,then when we just borded the train, daniel called, then call ALL of us 2 wait 4 him @ Simei...... 害我shout through the whole train, call all the poopies to get down..... then that stupid keith wong ming yao ( AHS pple, help me 2 kill him if u see him! thanks!), make me chase him through 2-3 carriages, then hide behind daniel.........idiotic sia......

Worst of all, when we goback, that stupid freaking asshole, sandy, make us QUEUE UP & write name b4 going in..... freak the hell out of her! she is a sucker sia! she let other boys cut queue, then dun let my gang ; mixture of boyz&galz, cut into in front me& fwendz......... shes pratically a BITCH! Go in, worst! those aunties in sku bl0ck all the staircases, dun let us in! WTF! in the end, we wasted like 2 plus hours dere 4 nthing!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! damn it! if i knew that it would be like that, i wld not even WASTE my time dere!!!!!!!!!!

lonelygal--X(