so long never sick liao...

then zhun zhun now sick. wtmama.

you know what people!!

SATURDAY is my BIRTHDAY!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

awesome much right!!

wahahahhahahahahahha. in your face people.

i'm a lucky girl.

anyway, havin' plans to close thiss blog or just abandon and let it rot.

too much memories and sadness.

decided to let go of everything and start anew.

so yeap. heh heh. i promise i'll lead a happy and good life aye.

see ya people.

perhaps some day i'll stop posting stuff to haziq in this blog.

but i think that day will only come when...

i've gone crazy,

or...

I stop loving him,

or..

he tells me in the face to shut the fuck up and give up on him.

well... yeah.

suddenly was reminded bout last time,

heh heh. whenever i go to his house and only leave at 6 plus,

where he has to send me home and walk slowly with me,

and didn't tell me that he has to reach home before his mom does.

and in the end, he has to sprint home.

and i must say, he's an awesome sprinter.

like awesome.

awesomely fast.

but still,

yeah. like, when i reach home, even before i could step into the toilet,

he's home.

he has to walk along the canal and everything to reach home.

awww, sweet aye.

okayyy, slowly losing my mind.

i've forgotten how to love,

cause i haven't loved anyone besides him in ...

7 months?

yeah, 7 months.

i broke my record 'cause of him.

i stayed single for 7 months.

Ain't that just.... unimaginable.

'cause i love him THAT much. Just that much.

yeah. that much.

sighs.

i miss those times.

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MY BIRTHDAY!! 7 AUGUST!! (:

Yay, awesome much. (:

love it!!

But, perhaps the best birthday present would be haziq.

But of course, no one can give me that.

So... yeap. (:

heh heh.

No, i haven't forgetten about you.

No, i haven't given up on you.

No, i'm not over what happened last year.

No, i still love you.

No, i haven't forgotten anything that happened between us.

No, i haven't.

I haven't.

Yeah, i'm stupidly waiting for you to return.

Yeah, i'm waiting for you to play guitar with me.

Yeah, i'm waiting for you to give me hugs so full of warmth.

Yeah, i'm waiting for you to cheer me up when i'm sad.

Yeah, i'm waiting for you to clean my tears away when i cry.

Yeah, i'm waiting for you to tell me everything will be alright.

Yeah, i'm waiting for you to come and fiddle with my hair.

Yeah, i'm waiting for you to send me home.

Yeah, i'm waiting for you to tell me ''i love you'' again.

Yeah, i'm waiting for you to hold my hand so very tightly.

Yeah, i'm waiting for you to kiss me.

Yeah, i'm waiting for you to hug me so tightly when i sleep.

Yeah, i'm waiting for you to go out with me.

Yeah, i'm waiting for you to be with me again.

Yeah, i still love you.

Yeah, i do.

I do.

But, you don't.

But, you love someone else, right?

But, you've given up on us already, right?

But, you don't love me anymore, right?

But, you forgot everything that happened, right?

But, you don't wanna hold my hand and walk through the path ahead of us, right?

But, you hope to keep clear of me, right?

But, you don't care about me anymore, right?

But, you don't give a damn anymore, right?

But, you regret being with me, right?

But, you don't give a shit whether i'm happy or not, right?

But, you don't love me anymore, right?

You don't love me anymore, right?

Right?

Why have you forgotten about us?

Why have you given up on us?

Why don't you love me anymore?

Why don't you tell me the truth about it?

Why don't you tell me that you still love me now?

Why aren't you by my side now?

Why?

You know it, i love you so much.

You know it, i gave you all my heart and soul.

You know it, you hurt me just so much.

You know it, i couldn't live happily without you.

You know it, all i want is you.

All i want is your love and you to be by my side.

That's all.

I've fallen crazily in love with you.

I've changed, 'cause of you.

I'm not as happy as before, because you dissapeared from my life.

I want you back in my life.

I see a future between us.

I know we can last.

I know it.

Is it anything that i've done wrong?

Is it the race?

Is it the attitude?

or, Is it me?

Is it?

Tell me.

I wanna know.

I wanna know that you still love me.

I wanna hear it from your mouth.

I wanna you to hug me so v. tightly.

I wanna have our first month anniversary, second, third, First year, Second year, and forever.

I wanna get kisses from you.

I wanna hugs from you.

I wanna play guitar from you.

Look, there're just so many things that i need and want from you.

So selfish, ain't it?

But, love is selfish.

I'm willing to give up anything, just for you.

Anything.

So why don't you come back?

I'm waiting.

I'll always be.

I love you, haziq.

I love you.